Okiez... the other time I was like bored and stuff so I went and found this short yet oddly accurate quiz... Link here!

Okiez... anyway here's my result for today..

Existing Situation
Desperately needs a close relationship with an affectionate and accepting partner; or some other way to be recognized and known.

Stress Sources
"Looking to stand out in the crowd and wanting to keep his rank and status. His current situation is irritating him because he can't seem to find anybody out there who values the same high standards he does. He is feeling isolated and wants to give in to his carnal urges, but can't bring himself to appear weak in the eyes of others. Wants others to see his unique qualities and character but can't stand to come off as needy, so instead he has an ""I don't care"" attitude and pushing people away. He turns his back on those who criticizes his behavior, but beneath his indifference is a person who is in desperate need of approval."

My Restrained Characteristics
"Has high emotional expectations and desires to be the center of attention, which makes it difficult to find a satisfying relationship. His reserved, cautious nature makes him emotionally distant. "

Emotionally demanding and will involve himself in close relationships but won't get too involved or give too much of himself.

"Current situation makes him feel unable to prove himself, but tries to make the best of things."

Applies tough standards to his potential partner and demands an unrealistic perfection in his sex life.

Current situation is leaving him doubtful and cautions about becoming intimately involved with others.

My Desired Objective
Lives life to the fullest. Has a high energy level and is always on the go. He is very active and his actions often lead to success.

My actual problem
"Enjoys making new plans and goals, but needs to be respected and admired for the things he accomplishes."

Problem No. 2
"Is disappointed and let down, feels there is no point in making new goals as they will leave him feeling the same way. Looking for friendly, pleasant relationships with others, who will further develop his intellect. Feels his current relationships are empty and holding him back. Reacting with an intense desire to become involved in various activities aimed at achieving his goals."



Yupz... okiez la.. some yes some no... budden overall still quite accurate.. I mean its relatable to wad I'm experiencing now...

Went to MA today... wahaha... super weird la... I mean I saw a lot of weird things today... 1st while waiting I saw 2 convicts going to MA also at the specialists... I mean they are pple also ma... so will get sick as well... and dun get me wrong... I dun hate them for what they did, whatever they did, I mean its all in the past and its not like you can change the past anyway...

Once my number was flashed on the screen, I went in the room and saw like 2 doctors inside. I was like " I'm screwed! " haha... I kinda dun like doctors.. Then the female doc was like introducting herself and the other doc to me... So I was like "uh huh..." Anyway... I told her my prob and she was like I'll do a check in ur nose with a cam and it costs 64 bucks for the whole thing... I was like ok..., thinking that it would be like put me on a reclining chair and all and bright lights to shine on me face kinda deal... den she called me to sit on another chair and plucked out the cam from nowhere... I was like WOW!!! then she went on to spray some thing in my nose to make it numb... it was like spraying water den I realised than my nose channel is like turning all soggy feeling... And went in the camera and it was I think to her speculations, all red and inflammed... then in went the camera to the other nostril... and I was like choked or smth... she saying its congested... I was like thinking arent u forcing it too hard??

And the meds she gave me is the same as the ones the poly gave me... tat means more nasal spray...

Ok... I was too lazy to post anything in the last few weeks. With all the things that I have to do and think about I guessed that I kind of neglected anything and everything around me. Now that things have kind of going back to place I guess I cannot leave my blog unattended anymore since I guess that some people are actually reading this. Not that I really mind if anyone do not read it anyway. Its kind of more like a record of my life and existence than anything else to me anyway, so its more of a "I do this thing for the sake of doing it kind of feeling".

Ok back to the real reason why I wanted to post this. I managed to finish reading the whole Twilight series and stuff so as promised in my previous post that I would gib my whole comment on the book and stuff. I'll try my best to not add any spoilers so as to allow people who actually want to give the book a try some sense of suspense.

About the 1st book: Twilight

The book is from the POV (point of view) of a girl who thinks too much and you can believe me when I say too much I do mean TOO much. I personally am a person who like to think a lot about life and stuff but she is a totally obsessed person who thinks a lot. Basically the whole book is about how she fell in love with a guy who happens to be a vampire ( how dreamy and unreal is that? ). Overall, its a teenage love romance kind of story that I would not actually read if not for my curious nature plus my idea of not letting things get half done no matter what. So anyway, I began reading the book and thought it was a good book to pass the time if u have nothing else to read.

2nd book: New Moon

The story continues. With Bella meeting another supernatural creature. Although, not hard to guess given the nature of the book being romance themed. Edward has a rival! Haha... typical right?? But in a way refreshing as the author shows the constant struggle between Bella and her new found relationship and her still hanging on relationship with Edward. An interesting book given the fact that the author emphasises so much on the relationships and how Bella struggles with herself which makes it more interesting as Bella tends to overthink things.

3rd book: Eclipse

Bella and Edward's relationship develops further and further and yet she still wants to get hold of her other relationship. If I was Edward, I would have literally killed the other guy out of jealousy. Budden its more of a teenage book so ya tat part wasnt there. Anyway this book talks a lot about how you cannot like 2 person at the same time and expect the guy you like to understand. Which I don't understand even though Edward said that he would understand if she chose the other guy over him. I would do the same thing as well but I certainly wun understand. Oh ya and another disaster strikes Bella with a whole gang of vampys trying to kill her.

4th book: Breaking dawn

Final book and lo behold, Bella goes and does smth more dangerous that I would never think of. Well, I can't say that the author's boring after I read this book though. A lot of fresh ideas in this book that I nvr thought before. Plus, she gets into more trouble than all the previous books added tgt. Forgive my use of abbreviations. Typing is trying on me. Back to topic, in the end alls well that ends well I guess. No surprises there though. Its a typical romance book afterall.

Side story: Midnight Sun Chapter 1

You can say this side story if my favourite of all that the author has written for the Twilight series. Wait, its the only side story. But my point is this, the chapter says a lot about the character Edward and after seeing it frm Bella's POV I think that readin this book makes the Twilight book more whole and I highly recommend this book. Or at least read the 1st chapter at least. I'm also waiting for the rest of the parts to come out. Seems promising, provided that the author does not kill it in the end. Not that there is much to kill. The ending is already known to almost the whole world by the time any of you actually read this post

Reaing the Twilight book really makes me think about love and romance. Plus the book that I just finished not long ago - Into the Labyrinth. And I quote from the latter " I was taught by the labyrinth to hate and not to love. " Which brings me to think, I wasnt really taught to love, just what is right and wrong wad to do and wad not to. You can say tat now, I'm afraid of relationships. I push away people whom I wanna be close to and hope that they stay away cause I'm afraid that they would nvr like the real me. Or that they would actually betray me in the end.